Tears.......
I cried yesterday night! I realise tat these few days I have been crying even for no particular reason! I think I am been very stressed by myself cause of things in offices n loads n loads of bills n alot of ppl!
I really feel very sad last night n cried until 12 plus! This morning when I woke up, my tears came rolling down again when some sentences came in my mind!
Why must I tell him wat my auntie say? Why must two ppl in a relationship so frustrated whether there is an ending in the end? Why must ppl go into a relationship? Wat did I do wrong? There are alot of whys in my mind now!
I have to keep telling myself not to cry! I cant cry like other gals who can cry whenever they want! Cause ppl have been telling me that I have grown up already n I must take care of myself!
I am also a gal, I also will cry when I am sad! I also need a shoulder to lean on when I am tired! I also want to have someone who I can talk to when I want n I can cry loudly too!
But I realise tat I dont have n when I want to cry, I must hide in my room n cry softly so tat no one will hear my cries!
Why didnt anyone realise or know tat actually Si Ni is not as brave or care-free as it seems? I also have time when I am scared n sad!
Cause I am alone in this world with no one to care or love or concern abt me!
I really feel very sad last night n cried until 12 plus! This morning when I woke up, my tears came rolling down again when some sentences came in my mind!
Why must I tell him wat my auntie say? Why must two ppl in a relationship so frustrated whether there is an ending in the end? Why must ppl go into a relationship? Wat did I do wrong? There are alot of whys in my mind now!
I have to keep telling myself not to cry! I cant cry like other gals who can cry whenever they want! Cause ppl have been telling me that I have grown up already n I must take care of myself!
I am also a gal, I also will cry when I am sad! I also need a shoulder to lean on when I am tired! I also want to have someone who I can talk to when I want n I can cry loudly too!
But I realise tat I dont have n when I want to cry, I must hide in my room n cry softly so tat no one will hear my cries!
Why didnt anyone realise or know tat actually Si Ni is not as brave or care-free as it seems? I also have time when I am scared n sad!
Cause I am alone in this world with no one to care or love or concern abt me!
posted by Si Ni as known as baby08 at
3:04 AM
3 Comments:
nini.. read ur blog and realise u having sum problems..dun wori..i guess he doesn't meant wat he say...jus gif him sum time..after few days...u 2 wld be as happy as ever again...cheer up k..eh the nini i noe is not like that 1 leh..this is wat u told me too..;p
Hey, don't think too much k? Every cloud have it's silver lining. Chuan dao qiao tuo zi ran zi and things will yu guo tian qing soon. Take care.
gal, b4 i sae anything...SAYANG...hugssss n pat on head...
u r not brave. u r not carefree. e nini i noe is someone who feels scared n lonely at heart, trying to find love n security from a special someone. she seeks thrills n instant gratification to find temporal happiness. but inside she's not dat happy.
she hides things from pple, cos she always feel she needs to be strong...n not someone who's weak n always crying...
gal, do u realise we will love u 4 who u r? everyone is weak. u need someone? pls call us...cos we care...dun cry alone pls...
we seek love, who dun? we all wan to have life a bed of roses. but it doesn't happen dat way. uve gone thru alot of downs in ur life. i wish u dun have to, but things just happen...when u hurt, rem unhappy things will pass, n good things will come no matter how bad it seems now...
u know im a straight person, gal. n as ur fren, i REALLY want 2 c u happy, truly happy. he is NOT e one. he's immature n doesnt know wat he wants in life. if u r depending on him to give u a future n happiness in life, to lead u out of ur unhappiness, u will most prob be disappointed. its easy to cling on, afterall there's no ultimatum now, but he will NOT give u e ending u want...cos he's not reliable.
i dunno whether u will be angry with me, dear for saying e above...but trying to find happiness by relying on human is bound to bring heartbreak. cos humans r falliable, n will disappoint. it is not healthy to rely on a someone like he's ur life. if he fails u, hurts u,ur heart will break, so will ur life.
if he reali loves u, he will FIGHT for u. all i see always is how he takes FLIGHT at e slightest trouble in ur relationship.he lacks courage to love u, he lacks courage to leave u. just WHAT is he?
i love u darling, i pray u will fly out one day a beautiful, self-assured woman who knows her life's directions..
dun be too self-reliant, n dun rely on him either, k? at least we r a group. i let u down, there;s still lin. lin lets u down, there's still minghui, etc. u need someone? pls take us. altogether,we will help u.
take care...we care...pls call when u cry or feel sad...hugs...
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