Confused state

These few weeks, alot of things have been going on in the company, like one of my sales colleagues has been asked to leave due to poor performance. I could say tat it is quite sudden as no one knows abt it and in another sense quite normal as all company practice tat.
Next week, all of u will be able to hear abt some news tat is going to happen to e company I am working in now. I cant say as only internal ppl know this news. So wait for it.
Yesterday when 'ah pa' n 'ah ma' were saying abt this news when I knew it already, 'ah pa' seems sad. He went drinking with my immediate boss. He really seem pathetic. I really pity him. Just want to say tat 'Ah Pa', I will support you.
I am really confused abt going into this company. Wat I know is this big company, 'ah kong' has alot of money and it is well-known.
In company, there will sure be alot of conflicts between colleagues and I hate it n I will not be able to use msn n internet explorer so freely already. There will be a partition for everyone and it sounds as if it is like a wall blocking everyone around. Sounds cold! The good part is it is very near to my house but when I need to get things done, I really have to travel much much more than now. My mgt says tat they will get me another ez-link card cause next time, I dont have allowance for my travels, only reimbursement.
Everything seems to have pros and cons. Maybe I just have to balance the pros and cons now before I make a decision. But I just cant help to worry abt my future.
When I told baby abt it, he kept saying tat I can do it but I am really starting to doubt my capability. I seem like a loner when I am working. I like to do everything by myself n not to have any person in my dept to 'disturb' me. Then I will not be accountable to anyone's actions except for mine. He said tat I am weird in this sense, but tat is me.