Where r all of U? Missing?

'Could I be accepted anywhere I go? I hope so' my msn nickname today.
After some many things have been happening, I really feel exhausted. Be it personal, work or study.
Everything that is happening is draining off all e energy tat is in me.
After a talk with my auntie just now, I realised no one understands me. Saying me stubborn? Saying me seeing only e bad pts in others?
I explained to her wat happened n she still think I am in fault!
Why must everyone think in tat way?
When I needed help, no one is there! be it 'so called friends'(u know who all of u r), family or ppl who r treasured! Has anyone offered me a job when I need one? Answer is NO!
When I am in my present jobs, all my so called friends started calling me asking me whether there is a vacancy in my job! Why should I help u?
When I needed money n jobs, where r all of u? Missing! No one to stand by my side!
Asking me to be independent! Freak all of u!
I believe everything is two-sided n not when I needed help, no one is there n when anyone needs help, I must be there! I am not a saint!
I am just some gal trying very hard to survive in this reality world!