Worthless is e word to describe myself!

Just one weekend n I came to know the value of me in some ppl' hearts!

To them, I am just a worthless person. A person whom u will look for when u r in financial needs n discard when she is of no value to u!

The truth always hurt! I finally came to know e true meaning behind it! It really hurts! I could really feel my heart bleed at tat pt of time! Tears just fall uncontrollably!

To him, I am not considered as a person close to him. An outsider is considered as a 'true' family member to him than me! Who is with u when u r walking a rough path? Who is worried for u tat u will be hungry n buy maggi mee n leave it at hm? Who unconditionally lend u when u say u need it although u lied? Who forgive u time n time again? How could he deny them all? How could he be so heartless to me? I regard him as a family member but he didnt! How could he do tat to him? Do he know his words really hurt?

To her, I am also worthless! I finally know why she didnt turn up for my birthday party! How could she do tat to me on a day tat is considered to me! She chose to hurt me on tat day! Refusing to pick up my calls n replying my msgs! She said tat I didnt help her when she needs it n want me to have my own taste of medicine!

Wat is family anyway? Wat is kinship to them? Giving up all my time n money to them? Waiting for their phone calls n rush to them? Time n time again, I have tried my best n they just denied everything!

I am tired!