Opinions abt death

On sun, went to Ju Shi Ling with baby! Went to donate money cause Qing Ming is coming!

After tat while we were talking, I realised tat we have different views abt death! For his view, it is rather a new beginning after death but for mine, it is to take away one's beloved!

From young till now, I dont really like listening to chanting! Cause in my view, if there is chanting, it means tat there is a funeral! I dislike funeral! I guess no one likes funeral! Funeral means tat someone is dead and u can never see or talk to tat person forever! I hate tat kind of feeling!

To my opinion, why must things happen tat way? Why must I have tat kind of experience while other people dont have to?

You may say tat I am pessimistic but who can be optimistic when come to this matter? Dont give me craps like saying tat one should be optimistic cause u have never gone through wat I have! If u have, u will know wat I am feeling!