Wat a shit day..

Just came back from the lunch tat I have not felt so weird, embarrassed and so pissed off..

I know both my IQ and EQ are bad and I show my emotions immediately on my face. I feel so shit at the table tat my face was so black and I werent smiling or eating unless someone takes the food for me. Going for a lunch like an uninvited guest who seems like so greedy for food. No, I am not this kind of person. If I want to eat, I can go and dine at the restaurant by myself.

Seriously even there is an extra seating, dont ask me to go or pls ask ur superior before asking me to go. Especially when I hear things who are said to another person like ' I already said tat Si Ni cant be here. Even if there is an extra seat, u must ask me first. How do u know there is an extra seat? How am I supposed to explain?' or 'Si Ni, u r here?' Even though things are explained later like ' I am not biased about u coming but I just dont like things to be done this way'. When I want to leave, u refuse and I felt even worse. Or a 'Sorry' tat was said, I feel so embarrassed.

Next time, I am going to be an unfriendly person who does not attend any more lunch or watever. If I want something, I can earn it myself or go by myself. If they do not want face, I want..